Mere saamne ek baccha chal raha tha. . .aur theekh uske peecche uski maa. . .deewaar ke upar se. . .utni si jagah mein sirf ek aadmi ek waqt par ek paon rakh sakta hai. . .main bhi peecche peecche us hi deewaar par chal rahi thi un dono ke peeche :) aur pata hai maine kya dekha? Ek baccha jo khatron par chal raha tha aur ek maa jo apne bacche ko aisa karne se rokh nahi rahi thi. . .kaisi maa hai woh? Upar se woh apne bacche ka haath bhi nahi pakad rahi thi. . .phir dheere dheere kuch aur bhi dikha. . .baccha har waqt maa ka aanchal pakad kar chal na nahi chahta tha. . . :) woh azaad hona chahta tha. . . :) aur yeh bhi dekha ki jab bhi bacche ke kadam dagmagaaye, maa ne apna haath badhhaaya. . .aur jab bhi bacche ne maa ki madad maangi, maa ne palak jhapakte hi uska haath thaama. . .

Kya us maa ne apna kartawya nibhaaya? :) Kya maa baap ka farz apne bacche ki raksha karna hai, unke liye sahi galat ka faisla karna hai, ya phir unhe har faisle ke bure aur bhale ke baare mein aaga karke, khud ke faisle lene ka adhikaar dena hai. . . ? Aur uske baad agar bacche ka faisla galat nikla toh. . . ? Kya maa baap ko phir bhi uska saath dena chahiye. . . ? Ab bhai faisla toh maa baap leinge toh ab main toh bas itna hi kar sakti hoon is baare mein. . . :P

Ek tha ladka aur ek thi ladki. . .aur. . .aur kya? Aage jo hua so hua. . .par aap ne kya socha? :) prem kahaani? :) Kya har ladka aur ladki ki kahaani sirf prem kahaani hoti hai? :) Kya baat dosti tak seemit nahi reh sakti? :) 'Par shuruwaat toh dosti se hoti hai, aur baat kab aage bad jaaye, logon ko kaano kaan khabar nahi padti', aisa log kehte hai. . .chalo bhai maan liya, kahi baar aisa beshaq hota hoga, lekin har baar aisa ho, aisa kaun si kitaab mein likha hai bhai? :) Kya ek ladke aur ladki ke beech ka rishta dosti acchi dosti nahi ho sakti kya? :) Aur kya har rishte ko naam dena zaroori hota hai? :) Yeh sab mein kyun keh rahi hoon? :) Kyunki dukh ki baat toh yeh hai ki main yeh jin ke liye likh rahi hoon, woh yeh shaayad kabhi naa paddhe :) Bas. . .yuun hi. . .shaayad bhadhaas nikaalni thi. . .ya phir bas mann ki baat kisi ko batani thi. . . :) zyaada kuch kehne ko nahi. . .bas ek fariyaad. . .agli baar ek ladka aur ladki ko ek saath dekhne aur paane par, kuch bhi soch samajhne se pehle bas ek baar un dono se zaroor pooch lena ki unke beech ka rishta aakhir hai kya. . . :) aur naa bhi poocho toh kam se kam unke rishte par, apni marzi ke hisaab se koi bhi mohar mat laga lena. . . :)

I lay on the hospital bed, waiting for the doctor 2 tell me wat I already knew. . .n wat I've already known 4 couple of months now. . .it is but inevitable. . .my arm needs to be amputated. . .it was for the best, said d doctor. . .but I'm d one sufferin d loss. . .hot tears rollin down my cheeks. . .my only source of solace bein d fact tat I've another arm. . .knowin tat it's not over yet. . .life can still move on. . .but nothin 2 replace wat I'm gonna lose. . .n it ain't jus d physical pain. . .of d physical separation. . .it's knowin one day after THE DAY, I'm gonna wake up n realize tat there's somethin of prime importance missin. . .

I've been prepared 4 dis 4 quite a while now. . .n I'm fine most of d tyms, but wen I'm remimded of d impendin sufferin, my eyes brim wid tears in a split second. . .is dis weakness? Is it wrong 2 b immensely attached 2 somethin tat's d very means of ur existence? Where does one draw d line? I dunno. . .I'm not sure whether I'll ever know. . .or ever understand. . .jus holdin on2 every passin moment like it's d ultimate. . .gropin in d dark 2 find somethin 2 stop tym, then turn it bk. . .wantin 2 relive everythin tat's given me immense joy n happiness. . .2 carry me thru d rest of d journey. . .my other arm in place. . .for now. . . :)

Ek pal nahi lagta na zindagi ko khatam karne ke liye? Mauka bhi milta hai. . .gehri chot lagne pa humaare mann mein is tarah ke khayaal aksar aate hain. . .chot do tarah ke hote hai. . .ek jo hamein lagne waali hai, yeh hum jaante hai, aur doosri woh chot jiske lagne se pehle hamein kaano kaan khabar nahi hoti. . .pehli tarah ke chot lagne par dard toh hota hai, par kisi na kisi tarah hum sambhal jaate hain. . .lekin doosre kism ke chot. . .achaanak ek toofaan ki tarah. . .uske aane ka koi bhanak nahi padhti aur jab tak uske aane ka ehsaas hota hai, woh apna kaam kar chuka hota hai. . .haan, waqt ke saath saath woh zakhm bhi bhar jaata hai. . .

Lekin unme se kuch aise hote hai jo kabhi nahi bhar sakte. . .insaan porcelain se bana aisa gudda banke reh jaata jo girke toot gaya ho, waapis jodaa gaya ho, phir bhi usme daraarein hoti hai. . .lekin kya wakai mein har zakhm nahi bhar sakta? Pata nahi. . .kal kisne dekha. . .kya pata jo zakhm hamein aaj itni taqleef de raha hai, kal us hi zakhm ki ek kharonch bhi baaki na rahe? Sirf khud ko sambhaalna zaroori aur honsle aur ummeed ke saath aage badhna. . .par haan, agar koi haath thaamne waala ho toh safar aur bhi aasaan ho jaata hai :) pyaar insaan ko bahut taaqat deta hai. . .khush hoon ki meri zindagi mein pyaar aur saath hai :) zindagi haath se nikal nikalte reh gayi. . . :)

Ek poori zindagi ko do hisson mein baatna padh raha hai. . .ek hissa jo duniya dekh na chahti hai. . .aur doosra hissa, meri apni zindagi :) main kya pehenti hoon, kya khaati hoon, kya paddhti hoon, kahaan paddhti hoon to kahi log jaante hai, lekin main kya sochti hoon, kya chahti hoon, kin logon ko pasand karti, kis tarah ke logon ko pasand karti hoon, kya karna chahti hoon, meri nazar mein azaadi kya hai, yeh sab bahut kam log jaante hain :) nahi, jo nahi jaante, unse koi shikve gile nahi :) bilkul bhi nahi :) kyunki aisa nahi hai ki meri taraf se bhi hamesha koshish rahi hai kisi doosre ko jaan ne ke liye. . .lekin jo jaante hain, unhe to mujh se juda na karo. . .

Is duniya mein do tarah ke log hain. . .ek jo sach jaante hain aur use apnate hain aur doosre woh jo sach to dekh kar nazarandaaz karte hai. . .chhote chhote maamuli maamlon mein nahi, main zindagi ki baat kar rahi hoon. . .mere liye yeh maan na mushkil hai ki log sach nahi jaante. . .log sach dekh na nahi chahte hai. . .aankhon par rangeen chashme pehen kar duniya ko apne aankhon se bhi nahi, apne chashmo se dekhte hain :) doosron ke nazariye se dekhna to door ki baat hai :) kabhi kabhi ghussa aata hai kuch aise logon par, lekin usse zyaada taras aata hai. . .apni duniya se baahar aa kar agar woh dekhein to unhe shaayad yeh ehsaas ho jaaye ki kya unki zindagi mein kisi cheez ki kami hai ya nahi. . .

Duniya se bhale hi ladhna padhe, jhagad na padhe, lekin apni zindagi ko zinda rakhoongi, bhale hi usse zameen ke neeche gaadhna padhe, par udhar se bhi usse saans lena sikhaaongi :)

Nobody deserves 2 b Atlas. . .wat's d point if he's a God? A person forced 2 carry d world's burden, not even his own, has no value, no respect even if he's doin a herculean task. . .nobody deserves 2 b burdened. . .n tat too burdened wid wat? Expectations, compromises, sacrifices, 'moral' codes, societal norms. . .living ONLY 4 others can b like slow poison. . .oh no it won't kill U instantly, no not every1's tat lucky. . .it kills U bit by bit. . .it kills U n U kill urself everyday on account of all dis. . .where does d 'I' cum in d picture? Is there an 'I' at all? Listen, yes V must listen 2 wat others have 2 say, listen 2 it n respect, but don't agree at d cost of ur person bein crushed like d grass beneath sum1's feet. . .

You can't make every1 happy, so whom do U please? D 'authorities', society? Wait. . .is there sum1 imp missin fm d list. . .sum1 who's d closest 2 U. . .yes there is. . .d person in my mirror :) if she can't b happy, then there's no way she can help me 2 make others happy. . . I need her 2 b happy, she deserves 2 b happy, every1 does, but she deserves 2 b d happiest person in my life 'coz she's been wid me all my life, thru thick n thin, thru EVERYTHIN. . . I owe her happiness d most :)

R U not capable of bein U? R U not responsible enuf 2 b U? Do U not respect or love urself enuf 2 jus b urself n follow ur heart? If U do, then jus b U. . .

Kehte hai ki nadi ke do kinaare kabhi nahi milte, isliye ek kinaare se doosre kinaare tak jaane ke liye ya to ek pul ya phir ek naav ki zaroorat hai. . .ek kinaara doosre ko nahi pehchaanta. . . lekin agar nadi hi sookh jaaye to? Kehne ko to nadi kahi logon ke liye faydamant hai, lekin agar woh ganda, apavitr ho? Aur agar naa bhi ho, lekin isse kisi ko koi faydaa na ho to kya phir bhi yeh zaroori hai? Uske sookh jaane se do kinaare mil jaaye, kya isme koi bhaalai nahi?

Log kahenge hi ki niyati ke khilaaf mat jao. . .uske apne kaayde kanoon hai, unki mariyaada to mat laango. . .dono kinaare ek doosre ko roz dekhte hai, phir bhi mil nahi paate. . .bhale hi apne aap mein ek doosre se alag ghut ghut kar rahe, phir bhi, nadi to rahegi aur us hi disha mein bahegi jis disha mein sadiyon se behti aa rahi hai. . .'ulti Ganga mat bahao' kehte hai log, lekin Ganga hi na rahe to? Aasaan to nahi, nadi ek din mein thodi na sookhti hai, sadiyon lag jaate hai, par shuruwaat to kabhi na kabhi karni hogi na. . .aisi ek nahi kahi nadiyaan hai, jinka koi faydaa nahi. . .dheere dheere in sab ko sookhna hoga, taaki kinaare mil jaaye. . .