A lotta things have been happening of late, blah blah story of my life, whatever :P I wanna talk of one such thing. . .

I once had a friend (oh really? :P), very close friend, got to know each other really well. . .uske apne problems the aur mere bhi aur dono acche dost ban gaye. . .sharing, caring sorts. . .uska ghussa, uske nakhre, sab sahaa. . .socha, dost hai, use waqt do. . .he’s workin on things, has pressure at home, chalo koi baat nahi. . .haan, lekin yeh kabhi na socha ki ek galti kya ho gayi mujhse, mere saath itna bura sulookh. . .jaise ki main kabhi dost thi hi nahi. . .jaise main ek museebat thi jo uske gale paddh gayi. . .a chill runs down ur spine when ur best friend looks thru U, like U don’t exist. . .baap re. . .bahut royi main, kaafi waqt bhi laga khud ko sambhaalne mein. . .

Haali mein socha, ki main dost banaati hoon, dosti nibhaane ke liye. . .bhale hi ek dost ne dosti toda, main ek baar koshish karti hoon, par haan, doosri or se koi jawaab na aaya. . .it got me thinkin. . .of reasons y one cuts someone out n never looks back. . .

1. Ego- Maybe he’s too proud to get bk to a friend he once abandoned, thinks he never did anything wrong. . . has plenty of other friends, disposing one off won’t matter. . .
2. Cleansing- He was probably at a stage in his life where he wanted to flush out everyone fm his life who caused him pain, or who was filth, accordin to him. . .d rage, disappointment n dejection all projected to one person, who thereby, did not deserve a 2^nd chance. . .
3. Me- This one bothers me. . . Am I d reason? Was I a very unreasonable person. . .short tempered, needy, emotionally dependent? Funnily enuf, I saw myself to b a cheerful, independent person, who’s worked hard to keep her temper under control. . .

 Or. . .

Maybe d whole fight n d friendship were things I overvalued. . .big tym. . .d person, d incident n its importance in ur life. . .it was d phase I was at, everythin seemed so much bigger than it was. . .like when U get shouted at as a kid, by a short tempered neighbour for playing cricket near his house, at a young age, U get really upset abt such things. . .n then U grow up to realize tat others can b wrong n can overreact to situations. . .so jus forgive, n move on. . .it wasn’t U after all :) n boy is tat a relief. . . :)