Sunday, December 13, 2009

Phir wahi khwaab. . .phir wahi daastaan. . .baar baar. . .jis kisse ke baare mein din ke ujale mein vichaar karna bandh kar diya tha, unhe raat ke andhere mein, apne khwaabon dekh ti hoon. . .ek bada sawaal. . .kyun? Jo dekh rahi hoon, uska kya matlab hai? Jo jaisa dikh raha hai, kya baat wahi hai, ya is sapne ka koi aur hi arth hai, jo main dekh nahi paa rahi? Jiski ichha apni zindagi ke haqiqat mein chhod chuki hoon, uske sapne? Kuch toh baat hai. . .bahut socha is baare mein. . .kahi woh mere aane waali zindagi ki chhavi toh nahi? Ya hai mere aaj ka saboot? Jab sapna tha, tab jo bhi ho raha tha, use hone diya. . .aur main dukhi bhi na thi. . .sirf aashcharya chakit. . .aur beech mein kisi ko pukaara. . .par woh koi aur nikla. . .

Subah utthi toh sapne ke baare mein soch kar utthi. . .ek ajeeb sa dard, kuch tanhaayi mehsoos hui. . .dheere dheere apne sawaal ka jawaab mila. . .bahut soch vichaar ke paschyaat. . .apne is sapne ka arth. . .jo dekha, woh waisa nahi tha. . .woh mere darr ka prateet tha. . .us darr ki ek jhalak mujhe subah bhi dikhi. . .maano woh sapna mujhe apne aane waale subah ke baare mein aaghaa kar raha tha. . .apne darr ke baare mein. . .jo sapne mein dikha, wahi mujhe kyun dikha, ab samajh mein aaya :) woh mere mann ke kone mein dabi hoi koi baat nahi. . .woh bas mere darr ki shuruwaat thi. . . :) usk darr ki wajaah :) ab jaa kar mann ko thodi shaanti mili hai. . .kuch toh samajh aaya :P ab is darr ka kya karna hai. . .iska jawaab dheere dheere dhonndh loongi :)

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